an un-understandable story.

Sunday, August 13, 2006

well, i've just changed my blogskin again.
thought that i should have something simple..
yeaah, and here it is, much more simple now(:

sigh.
sometimes, life is like so empty .
especially during when you are so alone..
listening to some sad songs...
here's what i wrote..
from my previous a-hem..
((:

life is empty when you feel something is missing from your life..
a part of your life..
you could not sleep, think or eat well.
you can't even do anything.
your heart is always in great pain at all times.
every night, you would cry yourself to sleep.
your greatest wish is that, he will be there for you..
always...
everyday, you would look at your handphone,
wishing he would reply to your smses..
but never..
he never reply anymore..
instead, a girl would be using his handphone..
and you would let your imagination run wild..
what is the girl doing with his handphone
what did they do together..
why hurt me?
why?!

you yearn to be with him every sec..
though you knew that it wouldn't happen..
when you found out that you does not have a place
in his heart, you feeling like bursting into tears..
people tell you to be strong, but you couldn't help
feeling helpless..
he always have a special place in your heart..
but you don't have one in his heart.
when happened to the fairytale u and him a month ago?
what caused this misery to happen?
why cling on to this fake fairytale, knowing it
wouldn't turn out the way you want it to be?
illustrations..
imaginations..
all you wanted is just love from him..
is it so hard to posess it?

when you found him cheating on you..
you found that, no one care for you anymore..
you feel like you're on the edge of breaking down..
you couldn't hold yourself back anymore..
you just want to run.. run..
run forever,
like there's no end for it..
you want to cry out loud,
telling how much you love him..
but tears were flowing out,
making you to stutter the words out.
there's no end for this,
the wound will always hurt you,
the past will always haunt you,
there'll be a deep scar that will remain there forever......


you wish to forget,
you yearn to forget,
you would do anything to forget this horrible past.
you wouldn't want to see him again..
perhaps closing the door of yours from the world,
would make you feel much better.
you just want peace, a simple life.
but why,
does he always goes to such extend to hurt you?
why can't he just stop hurting you..
with his new girlfriend?
does it make him happy to see you dying inside?
does he?
he would never care how you feel..
he would never bother whether you're bleeding inside..
he would never wait to see you die..
he would love to see you crying in pain..
and,
why can't he and his gf just stop harassing you?
they never would want to see you happy..
torturing you makes them feel better..
and they would always give you that smirk of theirs..
that would really hurt you so deeply..
deep down at your heart..
you still love him a lot..
but. he has changed..
memories flashed past your mind..
the fun you had together..
the way he was so sincere that you would be his girlfriend..
the way he was so sweet about you..
the way you cried and beg him not to leave you..
the way you hold his hands so tightly..
so he won't leave you.. and go over to that bitch..
yyou started screaming and wouldn't let go..
he keep pushing you away.. yet you wouldn't give up..
finally, you could see that the love would not come back
anymore.. you have lost everything..
everything..
things will not be the same anymore..
he has gone to the bitch..
he wouldn't be so sweet anymore..
he wouldn't love you the way he used to anymore..
he would not put up with your silly tempers
the way he used to..
he would not call you anymore..
you would not be able to see his name on the
called id anymore..
you would not receive any smses from him anymore..
he will not come back anymore..
anymore.. forever...........
............................

-cries-
deeply hurt,
bleeding on the inside.
it will haunt me forever..

legs painpain* but worth it:D

Thursday, August 10, 2006

OUCHHH.
my legs are hurting so badly from the 4 hours's walk at TM and Century Square.
Hahas, went down with my primary school best friend, Joelle(:
We DID have some fun. WOAHHHS~
well, here are some pictures of the adventure xD

(when we were in the mrt, and we noticed there were some 'red cows'
hanging outside Whitesands Shopping Centre which is near the Mrt
Station there . haahaas)

(MINI-MELTS! that was what we ate for... lunch? haahaas.
psst, we were eating in Century Square's toilet LOLLS!)

(LOLLS. took this for fun <_< sorta cute though.)

(Looking down at the first floor from the 4th floor(: )

(took this at century square toilet. ME = yellow, JOELLE=white )


we ate macdonalds for our breakfast.
haas, damn full .
then we left for century square.
LOLL. the neo prints machine was outta order.
but then , we manage to SAVE it back (HEROS!((:)
the machine was kind enough to let us decorate our neos for 45 mins.
we FINALLY got sick and then just press OK so they can print the neos out.
and then we headed to TM.
i wanted to watch CLICK!
and she wanted to watch something about ants.
but after a sec, the tickets for CLICK were sold out.
oh damn it.
but in the end, we played arcade.
well, it was pretty embarassing though,
as there was a lot of people watching us, (WE DID NOT PLAY PARA PARA)
playing the ... FINE, i don't know what that is called.
and after we played, the machine broke down.
LOLL. we got so embarassed that we went away.
and kong wei was there, trying to tease us (DUDE, GROW UP LAH )
we got really sick and left that place.
NOISY sia >< i think we spend all our time going to and fro TM and century square,
or vice versa. joelle met one of her friends.
and i think she didn't like that girl very much .
LOLL. that girl wanted to pierce her 2nd/3rd earhole,
and wanted joelle and me to accompany her.
(walaos. scared then don't pierce larhs)
when she was piercing, we ran away. and we ran into a selling puzzles shop.
and that stupid bald uncle called us to leave his shop.
i wanted to burn down his whole shop at that moment.
ARGHH.
anyway, joelle and me got ourselves a toe ring and a friendship band(:
sigh, my leg is still aching from that long walk........................................
i'll take a sleep now...
i suppose xD
ciaos `

new blogskin with bad news ;_;

Tuesday, August 08, 2006

NEWW BLOG SKIN><
fine, i know it sucks.
bloody hell.
nowadays i kinda feel so sad.
i FAILED MY MATHS, MY SCIENE! WTH <_<
i have COMPLETELY no confidence in my exams now.
i know i SUCKS in my studies.
i know that, really i do.
weixing told me that reading the sciene txtbook could help in my sciene exams.
NO NO NO USE , trust me.
reading the txtbook is like reading chapt 7 when the paper is testing you on chapter 10.
well, maybe i exaggerated a bit, but it's so true.
to other people they don't feel this way perhaps. why?
BECAUSE I CAN'T CONCENTRATE READING THAT BORING BOOK! GET IT?!
argh, now i'm so angry that i've forgotten to download which song.
and i MISSED such a GOOD GOOD chance!
i could have gone to the beach with steph,mm and friends!
BECAUSE, I COULD SEE WS THERE.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHS!!!
oh fuck, i feel so angry now.
I REGRET NOT GOING.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
well, i'm going out with joelle this thursday, i SUPPOSE.
we have too much things to catch up(: haas.
TODAY i went to her house and we played with JUBI.
yeah, it's a puppy, A VERY ADORABLE PUPPY.
IT'S THE CUTEST PUPPY ON EARTH. here i go :
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHS.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHS!!
LOLL ;D
sigh, today was the most boring of the most boring national day of my life in school.
usually, in LPS, we had so much fun(:
esp. with my friends !
WOAHHHHS.
but then, the PRCSS idol competition part was fun actually.
hahas , the PRCSS idol was a girl from 3/2 A or B.
1st runner-up was Farhan.
actually Syazwan should be the 1st runner-up.
I bet the judges were showing favourism at that point of time :maybe they will change their mind.
KEKEKEKEKEKEKES.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
JUBBIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII!!!!!!!!
WSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!
NOKIA3250!!!!!!!!!!!!
WHEN WILL I GET NOKIA 3250??!! ><
i love that handphone, though it's fat.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAAAS.
okays. i'll stop my crap now.
CIAOOS(:

blahblah*

Friday, August 04, 2006

YO.
I'M BACK FROM EVERYTHING.
i guess xD
SIGHS.
so much have happened.
people change,
everything change,
even i , myself change.
ERR. how would i know i change?
lols.
FROM L to X.
X to C.
C to G.
G to WH(:
HAHAHAHAHAS.
no one know what i'll be talking about.
AND FOR GOODNESS SAKE,
I'M NOT TALKING ABOUT MY BRA SIZE
OR WHATEVER! LOLLS <_<
blehsxP
AHHHS.
i got so many steads. LOL
don't know how many timer liaos.
weimin.
felicia tin.
denise.
zena.
marinah.
aqilah.
woahs
is that called many?
ERRR.
lols.
SIGH.
my heart everytime skip a beat whenever i ...........
hahahas.
that's y i love to stay back in school.
marinah and gang play bball while i was there sitting there, watching them play ..
'cos he also sitting watching..
hahas.
okok. don't wanna talk any further..
MY SKIN SUCKS.
I WANNA CHANGE MY BLOGSKIN.
I HATE MS.WONG.
ALL RIGHT, SHE AREN'T A GOOD TEACHER.
I WANNA CHANGE EVERYTHING.
ARGH.
NO.
I'LL TAKE BACK MY WORDS =x

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