Do I really deserve someone better......?
I have been questioning myself this ever since I noticed the change in your attitude and behavior.
Let's start with Valentine's Day.
As a girl, I am VERY conscious about this day. It's a day about showing your love and appreciation, isn't it? Even those who have neglected their loved ones can make it up by giving small simple gifts as a gesture of love in just a minute. But... you never did. You didn't even wish me at all.
I'm not saying I want a gift, damn it. I just thought we could be together on such a memorable day, because this is like our first Valentine's, or rather, my first. But now, I guess I can still proudly say I HAVE NEVER, celebrated Valentine's day in these 18 years of my life. Argh.
You could have come up with a better excuse, couldn't you? You could tell me you had something on, or you could tell me we CAN celebrate it another day to make me feel better, whatever I don't care. But you didn't. You just brushed it off.
And by looking at the way you have been treating me these few weeks, especially with the breakdown of your new car, with your wisdom tooth causing you so much discomfort, I can see how we will be, handling this relationship in the future if we were to encounter any hardship. This WILL, be the way you treat me.. and I don't think I am able to take it. I'm sorry but I want someone to treat me like a PRINCESS. I'm not spoiled, I just think that I really deserve a nice person.
That is why, I think I will be making a clean break soon.
Anyway, back to HAPPY STUFFS!
The week is coming to an end soon, which means, school is gonna be OUT in a few days! Part of me am anticipating it, but I kinda feel really sad because I feel that this class is pretty awesome ^_^
Well, we had IM presentation today. It was a client presentation and at first, everyone was pretty jittery about it. They had a lot of doubts to clear for every group, but I thought my group handled it pretty well.
GRRRCK FTW!! Will miss this group :) xoxo
Renee's signature big smiley
Exploring with the toy camera effect :)
Kristin, Russell, Caden
Caden!
Caden and Kristin
Caden and kristin
Girls of GRRRCK
Seriously I fucking hate to tie my hair............
Fucking look like S-H-I-T.
MY FACE LOOK LIKE A DAMN BALL WHEN I TIE IT.
MAKE ME LOOK LIKE A SECONDARY SCHOOL TUT.
Me and Jannah.. I know we look damn fair here thanks to Photoshop :p
After school, went to Starbucks with Michelle to celebrate a belated Valentine's Day! Hee.
With my hair all let down, FEELS LIKE MYSELF AGAIN ;)
Looking somewhere else......
Trying out a new effect, Miniature. Damn pretty!
Another vintage effect ;)
My Caramel Frappuccino and her Soy Latte!
In Starbucks, met Dawn! She was about to meet Junwei. So we all sat together :)
Thanks Junwei for helping us to take the picture! Even though I said you could join us later but in the end didn't.. Oopsy daisy.... :o
Yup, that was roughly how my day ended :)
All blessed with laughter and smiles :)
YES. SAY HI TO CLEAR PICTURESSSS!!!!!!!!
I just bought Canon Powershot S100, and above are the sample photos ^_^
The verdict
Even though the price for this particular camera is pretty steep, it was worth the investment because the quality of the photos are really similar to most DSLR, and there's also built in GPS too! Though I don't really have a need for that..
Can't wait to embark on a PHOTO JOURNEY with my new baby gadget!!!!!!!
Update: If you guys are interested in MORE sample photos of Canon Powershot S100, you can visit my recent blog post at the zoo.
ALL papers down, the remaining left would be Principle of Mgt, which I have to study quite hard too since I failed during Mid- Sem :/
I'm already feeling the holiday dreamy feeling! Am pretty excited for my Phuket trip still.. The thought of having a getaway gives me butterflies in my stomach BUT it's like the week before Semester 3.1 starts :(
Anyway, just wanted to include this cos I feel that this is pretty true.
For the "having more than one relationship" part, I can't guaranteed if I won't make it happen. Honestly, haha
Number 5 (mine)
You are very popular and you can get things done only by talking. Even to your
enemies! You are business-minded and like to do things spontaneously. You will
be famous if you get involved in any business. Your friends and families will
always ask for your help, and you are the one actually with the money to help
your friends. You will have more than one relationship, but when you settle down
you tend to be selfish. You tend to go for other relationships – even if you are
married at times because of your popularity. You tend to get along easily with
anyone because the numbers is a middle number. You love freedom and changes. You
learn your life through your personal experiences. Your best match 1, 2, Good
match 6, 8.
As much as however one day my feelings may change, I don't want this to fade away. I've been putting effort into this in making it work out, but certain things can't be changed. It seems like you'll just remain as unappreciative as ever.
Been feeling kinda fucked up lately. Thankfully I'm having a great time with my classmates :) They're always making me laugh!!
And, I'm so happy that our projects and presentations are finally FINISHED. Thank God, this has been such a mentally and physically torturous period for us :( Year 2 is so fucked up!
Luckily, there're always awesome classmates :-)
Class pics, some of our classmates left early in this pic :(
HARPI BURDAY DAWN! :)
Kristin and me outside the library taking a break from proj? HAHA
LOOK AT MY NUMBER, DAMN NICE OR WHAT. HAHA 1212!! Hopefully I win it?! :B
IM PROJECT!!!!!!
Apparently these assholes hacked my phone and changed my LOCKSCREEN..
YEAH ARGH! HAHAHA But I kept this wallpaper as my lockscreen for the entire day :)
Okey this is the lastest of the lastest of our project, which was A&P. Lovin' the clouds and sky that day!
Project discussion in process..
Yes, FINALLY EVERYTHING DONE!
SO yeah, before the last presentation, I was kinda in the holiday mood already, so went to meet him and we went to eat at Wong Kok Char Chan Teng. Then we headed down to our favourite hangout place which was Paulaner Brauhaus for our dark beeeeeer! It's fucking good!
It's times like this I feel the most appreciated :*)
Nothing beats a jug of good beer and a good boyfriend, hehe
OHOH, went to pierce tragus with Yanying!!!!! HAHA. I was freaking out the whole time because it was so fucking scary! Afterall it's a damn bone right? But it wasn't painful at all! Went to google so it was because the tragus has the least nerves so it's not that painful :)
AWESOMEE
Went to find Jason at Club Street Social with him and the bar was pretty packed! The drinks were expensive, but quite worth it coz it was quite nice.. Hehe
Cocktail #6: Rum, Mint, Fernet Branca
The alcohol content was really strong and I ended up drinking THIS SINCE HE COULDN'T TAKE IT. walao wei..... Haha
Cocktail #3: Yamazaki, Madeira, Apricot, Lime
Yesterday met up with Jiale and Gary for an impromptu outing and we went to T.G.I.F and eat!! :)
As seen, Spiced Shrimps and Beef Mushroom Balls (it's fucking nice)
BUT SO EXPENSIVEEEEE BUT SO NICEEEE ARGHHSDX!
Hahahah anyway we camwhored!!
Their turn to camwhore heh
Jiale dug out some of our past neoprints and here's a major difference between our 2009 and 2011 neoprint. MAJOR diff.
Some way overdue photos from January..... :-)
CNY photos!
Me and Evan
And meetup with Hilary on CNY day 2 when most of the shops were closed and we had to hang out at Somerset.. hahaha
CHILLI GARLIC PRAWN PASTA YUM
And meetup with Xinyi after so long!!
Yup, that more or less sum up my Jan and Feb in 2012...
Damn , I really miss those times when I'll make impromptu trip to Malacca/Jb with my dearrrrrr then we'd hang out hehehe
This was like 9am? We were looking at the map to hunt down the nicest Laksa which turned out like crap
Our room's view
DAMN I MISS MY BROWN HAIR
Sigh..
Those were really the times I really felt the most connected with you.
Now, even though we're just a few centimeters apart, the gap between us is widening.. I keep trying and you're just nonchalant about the whole thing, aren't you?
I know the reason why you don't really try in our relationship is because of your past relationships and that you think that by putting in effort in me, it might be a waste of time because you're scared it'll just fail. But without putting anything in it, it will of course, fail. So why not just put in a little heart and soul in this relationship, and try to make it work?
As I look at you yesterday, I felt that you aren't the one I knew anymore.. You're just not... you. Yesterday, as I looked at you, you're just this angsty guy, who can't give a fuck about anything, so insensitive, and all you ever care for is your own feelings. So what if I misread your message and caused you to wait a little longer for me? It was basically me who did all the fucking travelling, all the running. All you could do was to throw a tantrum, and get irritated and blame me for everything.
And now your ex-gf has found out, but you just can't come clean with her. Can't you just fucking come clean so everything can be better for us?!
The only place where I can really rant, where "somebody" can really "sit down and listen to me" is only my blog. :(
Because nobody really cares about what I feel. They only care about their own problems
